Saturday, September 26, 2009
During the salam2 part, dad hugs me mentioning about me being pregnant without a mom by my side, and while he said that he was weeping uncontrollably. I knew my dad, and he is one man who does not tear easily. Seing him in the tearful condition, just made me tear even more. God knows how much i want him to be happy and peaceful in these last decades of his life. Nothing is better than to see a smile on my dad's old face.
Semoga Allah sentiasa tabahkan hati abah dalam mengharungi dugaan dan cubaan..dilah, khai, caca dan kak ain sentiasa doakan kebahagiaan abah...
This year also marks the first year celebrating Ramadhan and Syawal with a husband, and it was such a meaningful one indeed. To forgive and forget, is the best thing that one should practice for one another. And as i kissed my husband's hands on the morning of Syawal, i feel a rush of emotion all over me. With the little one wriggling inside, i feel even more blessed. It brings the 3 of us closer together, with hubby kissing my stomach, greeting the little one inside. Love you, my dear husband. <3
Semoga Allah redhakan hati kami dgn ape jua yg bakal kami tempuhi, dan semoga Allah kurniakan kami zuriat yg soleh dan solehah, yg sihat-wal'afiat insya Allah.
Amin.
And so on the first day of raya, we all wore black coincidentally the same with bro and sis-in-law. We became the men and women in black. Hee. On the second day of raya, me hubby and dad went to bro's house and i was so so so surprised and JEALOUS of the purple decoration in bro's hourse. They had purple curtains, carpets, cushions, table tops and decorations!
Me: "Ca, u purposely right, sengaja amek my colour! Want make me jealous right!"
Bro: "Eh, you take my colour orange, i take your colour purple lah"
Me: "Ape seh, tak fair ah. Tak suker ah ur house so many purple. This is supposed to happen only in my house"
Bro: "Ape jerrrrr, macam ko sorang ble amek purple"
Me: "Blerghs memang ahhh."
HAHAHAHA.
And so i captured a few snapshots.
Tak fair seh. Wait till i get my own house ah ca.
I'll put ALL in purple.
-___________-
And today, we went out early in the morning for raya as hubby is on afternoon shift. So my family had breakfast at Mr Prata, at Evans Rd. Coincidentally met with the school teachers who were also having their breakfast there after their soccer match at CCA branch. They were having some soccer friendly matches for the teachers in different schools, so my school sent down 1 team called the FX team. Muawahaha. As i guessed, they lost. Hahaha. The whole gang was there, i felt so paiseh. Me in my raya clothes and make-up. Hahah. I swear the teachers never seen me like this. Heh. Sekali sekala ccpe bergaya, ape salahnyer. ;p
Ok i shall stop babbling for now. Tomorrow got 2 more houses to go to in the morning, and another visit in the evening. Haiya so tired. In this kind of condition, lucky got brother's car. Or not ah, pengsan want to jalan raya. Still can wear high heels some more. But spare shoe must bring, just in case the feets buat hal. Hehe.
Signing off now.
To all muslims, Salam Aidilfitri!
:)
Tuesday, September 15, 2009
I dont really know when i'll get over this feeling and move on completely. Its definitely not easy, because she was the closest to me since young. I missed her smile, her laughter, her jokes, her silly antics and all sorts of her characters. Even when she was sick and bed-ridden, it was still me that she will asked for.
Now, preparing to be a mother myself, i cant help but miss her so much. I wish she could be with me to see the birth of my child- her grandchild. Going thru almost 9 month of this experience is enough to make me realise how much a mother has to go through to bring a child on earth. And how i have missed the opportunity to pay her back on all the things that she has done for me. I've always felt i've not paid her enough....because i think it will never be enough to repay a mother's deeds...
I cant seem to erase her images in my head and it just pulls me deeper into the mood of sadness. Tho hubby always adviced and comfort me, i think these feelings will stay put for quite a while. How can you ever erase a daughter's feeling towards her mother? Especially one who is very very very close to each other?
I cant help but recall those moments when i showered her, feed her, changed her clothes with dad, talked to her when she cant talk...and all other precious moments. It is just too overwhelming. To think about what she has gone through ripped my whole heart apart. I just wished i could hug and kiss her for one last time....
I hope everyone out there treasures their family members while they still can. It is such a pity to realise such precious moments when the person is gone. Treasure the moments while they are still around...
And my little one, i hope she'll be healthy with God's will. Come whatever, only Allah knows best. She is a gift from Allah, and i hope He guides me and hubby in bringing her up into this world.
There have been too many events happening in my life, and it keeps on challenging me. Tho i am aware that He will never put me to a test beyond my ability, it is still a challenge. Perhaps there is a blessing in disguise amidst all of these challenges.
Redhakan lah hatiku dgn ape jua yg bakal ku tempuhi....
Friday, September 04, 2009
Managed to finish off some work from 7am just now. Working from home is always not easy because the resources are not available. Brought back a few documents, but those aint enough. Arghhh. Stress la fara. Sooo many things to finish up.....
Am planning to drop by some shops for baby cot hunting. I'm eyeing those wooden types ones, coz they look classy to me. Sheesh. The prices are 'classy' too. Heh. Well, i gotta bring the budget list which i've done the other day. I've line up all the important stuff to get, and places to survey. Haish. Stress stress.
You guys out there better start saving up hor. If you're not married yet, and dont intent to, still MUST also start saving for family plans later. Dont tell me i didnt warn you hor.... heh. What with the wedding package ala garden lah, ala royal lah, ala village lah...watever it is, $$$$ must horrr.
hehe. :)
I am so the makcik-makcik.
Ok then, going off now.
Taking care peeps!
=)
