Wednesday, November 04, 2009
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After giving her milk, usually she'll doze off, cuddled in my arms. However today, she took a longer time to doze off. I was walking from one room to another for a few times before she finally settles down and her eyes closes. And when i lay her down on her secure sleeper bed, she was facing upwards. A few minutes later, she has turned on her own and decided to sleep in this position.
Arfah Radhiyyah
:)
Back to the Latest Event of The Year (yer lah tu ehk...kononnyer), first and foremost syukur alhamdulillah to Allah swt for granting me with a healthy baby after being in the labour ward for almost 11 hours. It was definitely an experience for both me and hubby. Mine was an induced labour, hence the process is a bit slower than the normal labour where the pregnant mummies came in with contractions or broken water bags.
The whole process was tiring and painful. SubhanaAllah. I am thankful to Allah for giving me the strength and courage to continue on in the labour ward. Am also very very grateful to have such a patient husband who was with me throughout the whole process, helping to encourage me non-stop and reciting the Quran to ease the pain for me. He was there holding on to me tightly by the side of the bed during the whole process. He was there to witness the whole episode of it, and managed to capture a few special moments straight after i delivered Arfah. She was out after 2 hours of pushing (it was not an easy push), weighing 3.2kg and length at 51cm. The nurse was saying that Arfah is considered quite tall for a newborn baby. :)
Fresh from ibu's womb
Going back home in yellow suit
On the 7th day, we officially name her after shaving off her hair. Hubby did the shaving despite him being totally clueless on shaving baby hairs. Hahah. The whole process was done only among hubby's family (mom and brother) and it took about an hour plus to shave Arfah's hair. Hehe.
And now...the journey has started. I pray that Allah would guide both me and hubby in raising up our child. And may Allah grant us eternal happiness insya Allah.
:)
Thank you to all my lovely friends who has wished, text-ed, called, visited and prayed for me. Syukran to all and may Allah bless you always.
And let me end this post with a picture of my princess.
(satu kasut hilang tak tau mana Arfah tendang. hehe)
Saturday, October 17, 2009
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Relief ccpe, Idah, brought camera and took pictures. Konon 'last day' before maternity leave lah kan. hehe. Pictures are up in facebook. Thanks girl!
Nowadays my face often gets oily and is now growing with a couple of stubborn pimples. I look haggard. Hisyh. I read the book, and it says that pregnant ladies in their last trimester perspires easily and their body produces more heat. So yearh, maybe that explains.
My plan for the next couple of days is to rest and rest. Wohooo. This is like the first time in my life to have such luxury days of leave. A few colleague who has given birth adviced me that at this point of time, i'll need all the rest that i have before delivery. Becoz once baby is out, there might be very little rest. Hehh. :)
Was wondering how my other friends are doing at this moment.
Hmmmmmmmm.
Ok thats for now, gotta get going.
Take care readers!
=)
Sunday, October 11, 2009
A few more days before going back to the mother in law's place and i've yet to pack so so so many stuff. The last time i had to do packing was when the family stayed with the bro when mom was sick. After getting married, i brought back ALL my stuff from bro's place and that already took quite an effort. Bro has warned me to packed everything and not to even leave a trace of an item at his place. So sad. Mentang2 org dah kahwin, die taknak jaga kite lagik. Heheheh. Sedih kiter. hehe.
So now i've yet to pack. It comes to a headache when i got the long sleeve dress, the short sleeve dress, the blouses, the tudungs, the make-up kits, the bathroom toiletries and so many many many other items to bring along. Hubby's items are not much, because well...we're going back to his old home which he has been staying for the past 24 years. I'm sure he still has some of his items there, or he can always borrow his brother's clothes. Heh. I'm bringing the big big luggage to stuff my things in. I think the father in law will be shocked when he comes to pick us up. Heh.
A friend of mine whom i knew a year ago from the kursus rumahtangga has given birth to a baby girl named Ramiza! I was shocked when i received her sms, because her due date is the same as mine! Yet she gave birth first, and alhamdulillah all went well for her. I am so so extremely happy for her! Both of us have been keeping in touch regularly thru smses, ever since we got to know that both of us were pregnant and we have been sharing and seeking each other's advices throughout our pregnancy. And now her baby's already out! Oh wow, i'm sooooo happy for her. Tho she did say the whole experience was painful...(err alamakkk)....but it was a nice sight to see your baby born. :)
Geee. Just couldnt resist to share the news on my blog. And also, to my surprise i saw one of my MSS poly frens at KK when i went for one of my check-ups. I was extremely super surprised to see her pregnant and is due about a week before me. Hubby and i was shocked coz we didnt know she was married, i think she must have made it a small event, and i doubt so ANY of us in MSS knows that she's married and about to give birth now. The name...well i shall keep it to myself. Coz i'm sure she has her reasons. Some people prefer to be low profile, so yup. I wish her well in her delivery too. All the best to her, insya Allah. :)
About a week to go at work, and i am still having trouble to clean my desk. I have this goal to ensure that the desk is clean and not in a state of mess by the last few days. I'm only about 40%, so about 60% more to go in this coming week before my relief colleagues takes over. Heh. Or not she'll be having trouble finding the right documents at the right time, just like me. Gee!
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Been missing dad these few days, but then again all in is God's hands. I wish him well always. I cant do much, but can only pray for his happiness. I may look like the defiant daughter, but only God knows what i am feeling inside. I may be married, but a father is still a father. And i love him as he is my only one parent left. Wa'allahualam.
And to everyone else, i hope everything's going fine for you. Keep in touch, and may Allah protect you always.
:)
Sunday, October 04, 2009
And so, i blog.
With two pillows stucked underneath my back, and legs raised above another few pillows (to prevent swelling), i sat comfortably on my bed browsing thru the net. Hubby is on OT (i hate OTs!) and so i had my laptop as my companion. With her wringgling and wringgling (she's active at night now, and sleeps in the day), i've got enough companion while waiting for hubby. Hur hur.
I finished the ironing of the baby's clothes, and packed some of the stuff. Somehow i find the iron is a bit too big now. Had a bit of trouble to iron some of the small parts of the sleeve, becoz the sleeve is too tiny but the iron is too big! heh. Should get a smaller cuter iron. Is there any in the first place??
Haha. I shall get a smaller purple iron. Isnt it going to be nice and lovely?!!
:D
Ok so raya is almost done. The family only went out short sessions on 4 separate days to finish both the father and late mom's siblings. That itself requires much planning becoz hubby is on shift, and it is extremely difficult to accomodate to my dearest brother's tight schedule and the dearest father's night schedule. 3 separate schedule equals a big headache on planning the raya visits. But alhamdulillah, we managed to finish up most. I think we're left with about 2 more houses, which have yet to plan when....haish.
I think with an additional member (caution: hot news, hot news) next year, we might as well all go on our separate ways with each of us having our own partners.
Oh come on, tell me about it.
-rollseyes-
Work have been stressful these days due to the CCA selection for next year, and i've got about 2 more weeks before leaving my relief colleague on her own. Sighs. Is not easy because it's quite a handful to take, and the school has got many new things lined up next year. Am planning to have a good rest during the maternity leave, and not bogged down with emails or calls on school queries and stuff. And so i really hope the handover can be smooth and easy. And i really really hope the subject head and hod can offer their help in times to come. Sigh. Another thing to worry about... :(
And so here goes another rambling of mine.
Not bored ya?
Well, think i better get going.
Take care you all.
:)
Thursday, October 01, 2009
Judging from the situation i am in, i perfectly knew the meaning of that. Been there, gone thru it, and done it.
At this point of time, i'd rather not get myself entangled in too much of deep emotions that will complicate the situation i am already in. With a life that i am supporting inside me, i think its best to calm myself down and remain focused. But sometimes, sensitivity takes its place and emotions starts to appear. No matter how hard i try, a girl is still a girl. I lost to my own sensitivity.
Sometimes trying is not enough. What i give, is not what others might want. And what others give, might not be what i want. Thus, what is the conclusion?
I am dishearteaned and saddened with what have just surfaced, and i question my ability to solve it. If i cant solve it, what else can i do?
I am never good at expressing my feelings, and for once, i hate that.
Good night.
Saturday, September 26, 2009
During the salam2 part, dad hugs me mentioning about me being pregnant without a mom by my side, and while he said that he was weeping uncontrollably. I knew my dad, and he is one man who does not tear easily. Seing him in the tearful condition, just made me tear even more. God knows how much i want him to be happy and peaceful in these last decades of his life. Nothing is better than to see a smile on my dad's old face.
Semoga Allah sentiasa tabahkan hati abah dalam mengharungi dugaan dan cubaan..dilah, khai, caca dan kak ain sentiasa doakan kebahagiaan abah...
This year also marks the first year celebrating Ramadhan and Syawal with a husband, and it was such a meaningful one indeed. To forgive and forget, is the best thing that one should practice for one another. And as i kissed my husband's hands on the morning of Syawal, i feel a rush of emotion all over me. With the little one wriggling inside, i feel even more blessed. It brings the 3 of us closer together, with hubby kissing my stomach, greeting the little one inside. Love you, my dear husband. <3
Semoga Allah redhakan hati kami dgn ape jua yg bakal kami tempuhi, dan semoga Allah kurniakan kami zuriat yg soleh dan solehah, yg sihat-wal'afiat insya Allah.
Amin.
And so on the first day of raya, we all wore black coincidentally the same with bro and sis-in-law. We became the men and women in black. Hee. On the second day of raya, me hubby and dad went to bro's house and i was so so so surprised and JEALOUS of the purple decoration in bro's hourse. They had purple curtains, carpets, cushions, table tops and decorations!
Me: "Ca, u purposely right, sengaja amek my colour! Want make me jealous right!"
Bro: "Eh, you take my colour orange, i take your colour purple lah"
Me: "Ape seh, tak fair ah. Tak suker ah ur house so many purple. This is supposed to happen only in my house"
Bro: "Ape jerrrrr, macam ko sorang ble amek purple"
Me: "Blerghs memang ahhh."
HAHAHAHA.
And so i captured a few snapshots.
Tak fair seh. Wait till i get my own house ah ca.
I'll put ALL in purple.
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And today, we went out early in the morning for raya as hubby is on afternoon shift. So my family had breakfast at Mr Prata, at Evans Rd. Coincidentally met with the school teachers who were also having their breakfast there after their soccer match at CCA branch. They were having some soccer friendly matches for the teachers in different schools, so my school sent down 1 team called the FX team. Muawahaha. As i guessed, they lost. Hahaha. The whole gang was there, i felt so paiseh. Me in my raya clothes and make-up. Hahah. I swear the teachers never seen me like this. Heh. Sekali sekala ccpe bergaya, ape salahnyer. ;p
Ok i shall stop babbling for now. Tomorrow got 2 more houses to go to in the morning, and another visit in the evening. Haiya so tired. In this kind of condition, lucky got brother's car. Or not ah, pengsan want to jalan raya. Still can wear high heels some more. But spare shoe must bring, just in case the feets buat hal. Hehe.
Signing off now.
To all muslims, Salam Aidilfitri!
:)
Tuesday, September 15, 2009
I dont really know when i'll get over this feeling and move on completely. Its definitely not easy, because she was the closest to me since young. I missed her smile, her laughter, her jokes, her silly antics and all sorts of her characters. Even when she was sick and bed-ridden, it was still me that she will asked for.
Now, preparing to be a mother myself, i cant help but miss her so much. I wish she could be with me to see the birth of my child- her grandchild. Going thru almost 9 month of this experience is enough to make me realise how much a mother has to go through to bring a child on earth. And how i have missed the opportunity to pay her back on all the things that she has done for me. I've always felt i've not paid her enough....because i think it will never be enough to repay a mother's deeds...
I cant seem to erase her images in my head and it just pulls me deeper into the mood of sadness. Tho hubby always adviced and comfort me, i think these feelings will stay put for quite a while. How can you ever erase a daughter's feeling towards her mother? Especially one who is very very very close to each other?
I cant help but recall those moments when i showered her, feed her, changed her clothes with dad, talked to her when she cant talk...and all other precious moments. It is just too overwhelming. To think about what she has gone through ripped my whole heart apart. I just wished i could hug and kiss her for one last time....
I hope everyone out there treasures their family members while they still can. It is such a pity to realise such precious moments when the person is gone. Treasure the moments while they are still around...
And my little one, i hope she'll be healthy with God's will. Come whatever, only Allah knows best. She is a gift from Allah, and i hope He guides me and hubby in bringing her up into this world.
There have been too many events happening in my life, and it keeps on challenging me. Tho i am aware that He will never put me to a test beyond my ability, it is still a challenge. Perhaps there is a blessing in disguise amidst all of these challenges.
Redhakan lah hatiku dgn ape jua yg bakal ku tempuhi....
